it's ruined. all ruined.

just when i thought everything is going really great, things start to take a new turn.
so this is it. planned to go Butter Factory on the 31st of March. well, what for? u may ask. well, thought i could have a little fun with my friends to celebrate my birthday. was about to make reservations for a table. then, my housemate came back with next week's work schedule.

shoot. when i saw the roster. my eyes were filled with tears!!! (exaggerating? well, it's something big for me though). felt like screaming my whole lungs out. my ward manager put me on night duty on the 31st. what a way to celebrate my birthday. what.a.way.

do i not deserve some fun after all this hard work?? i did request for a morning shift on my birthday. but she ignored it!! i mean it's fine that she ignored it, but how could she do such thing to me twice?? this is the second time that I've requested! and this is what i get?? why can't she just grant me my request??? she never grants ANY of my request. NEVER.

the same thing happened the first time i requested. the first time i requested for morning shift too. I've bought tickets for a play in the theater. and guess what??? she ignored my request and put me on night duty instead. i pleaded to change the work schedule. practically pleaded, for goodness sake. how am i supposed to go to the theater when i am on night duty?? the play starts at 8pm. she refuses to change my duty schedule. REFUSE! so i ended up not going to the play. which i really really wanted to. what the heck is her problem?? it's not like i did not help out when there is shortage of staff. i even did double shift several times just because my colleague took M.C. i could have said no. but i did not. cus she won't be able to find a staff to cover up in such short time.

i know i am getting emotional here. i couldn't help it. well, it's just a stupid birthday. i shouldn't make such a big fuss out of it. just another normal day to go by. i can do that. well at least i think i can.