the most hardest thing to get is not money, it's time.

i am sooooo grateful that i have been given 9 days to go back Malaysia and be with my family~
i was like the happiest kid then! miss my family badly. made me think why on earth did i choose to work in Singapore back then? sigh. oh well! this post is gonna be a happy one!

one more thing that i look forward to when i get back to Malaysia is the FOOD!!!! i even wrote down a list of food that i must eat before i leave! so here's the list! (the original one sudah kena conteng from which food i've eaten and which shop sudah close down!)
1. Green Leaf -a small cozy restaurant that serves my favorite American breakfast set and fluffy french toast!!!
2. Hakka Noodle- okay, this was a major disappointment. this shop closed down. sigh..
3. Yong Tau Fu! + Chee Cheong Fun. another yummy breakfast!~
4. Pan Bakery-this one closed down as well. =( no more yummy pancakes with maple syrup and milo susu anymore!!!
5. Mee Hoon Kueh!!
6. Hor Fun- even though i did not get to eat the one i wanted, dad brought me to try another hor fun from another shop. it's yummmmeee too!!
7. Food from Pasar Malam! -this one pun tak makan, because tak jadi go night market. been raining every evening.
8. Bak Kut Teh!!!-this is a must have!!!

the following 3 is written by my dad!

9. PJ old town nasi lemak
10. Wan Tan Mee
11. Popeye's Chicken!

you must be thinking that i'm one hell of a greedy girl eh? well i am!!!
well besides this, i was craving badly for sushi. begged my sis to bring my to sushi zanmai!!! i had to have the salmon mentai!!!! savor every bite!! mmmmmm....





went for seafood in Pantai Seafood with my grandma!

and we went hiking in frim. wow. i loved it. especially with my family!!





and i spent most of the rainy afternoons at my porch with my naughty doggy. i am sooo gonna miss all these wonderful time i spent with my family. when will the next time be?

well, basically that's what i've been doing for that 9 days. how i wished time could just stop there.

best working day so far.

well, it was Sunday after all. all clinics are closed. only a few doctors will be kind enough to make rounds to see their patient on a Sunday morning when they could spend their Sunday morning at home with their families and have a really nice breakfast together.(well, at least that is what i would love to do on a Sunday morning.)

started my day by seeing all my patients. made sure they are all cleaned up, had their breakfast, taken their medications and sitting up comfortably on their beds awaiting their doctors to visit them. there were a couple of discharges on my side. glad they could all go home. who would like to stay in a hospital anyway? when i took over, there were 8 patients. then 4 of them were being discharged. so I'm left with 4 patients!

there was this really adorable patient. like a grandfather to me. an Australian man. joyful. happy go lucky. and always smiling. well i was helping him with his breakfast, and when i look out the window, it's raining. i love it when it rains. the scenery right there was perfect! the trees and the rain. i don't know, they just go well together. ^^ how i wish i could open up the window and let in some cool breeze. at least that would make my patient feel really good. but unfortunately, the windows are all locked in case there are some patient who decided to umm.. you know.. haha!
oh well, i really did enjoy feeding him. we talked and joke around. plus the weather has been really great.

and another great thing was, the situation of the ward is peaceful i can say. we can joke around and laugh softly. we were able to communicate with each other. everyone was helpful. we had our jokes and laughter. this is the kind of environment i would love to work in. because most of the time, we are all minding our own business, working like a robot, everyone hardly talk to each other unless it's regarding the patient and each and everyone are kinda stressed up with work. everyone gets easily agitated. then there are many black faces around. the whole environment feels tensed don't you feel? i know i won't come across a day like today very frequently. but i did enjoy working today. i actually felt happy working here for the first time.

it's ruined. all ruined.

just when i thought everything is going really great, things start to take a new turn.
so this is it. planned to go Butter Factory on the 31st of March. well, what for? u may ask. well, thought i could have a little fun with my friends to celebrate my birthday. was about to make reservations for a table. then, my housemate came back with next week's work schedule.

shoot. when i saw the roster. my eyes were filled with tears!!! (exaggerating? well, it's something big for me though). felt like screaming my whole lungs out. my ward manager put me on night duty on the 31st. what a way to celebrate my birthday. what.a.way.

do i not deserve some fun after all this hard work?? i did request for a morning shift on my birthday. but she ignored it!! i mean it's fine that she ignored it, but how could she do such thing to me twice?? this is the second time that I've requested! and this is what i get?? why can't she just grant me my request??? she never grants ANY of my request. NEVER.

the same thing happened the first time i requested. the first time i requested for morning shift too. I've bought tickets for a play in the theater. and guess what??? she ignored my request and put me on night duty instead. i pleaded to change the work schedule. practically pleaded, for goodness sake. how am i supposed to go to the theater when i am on night duty?? the play starts at 8pm. she refuses to change my duty schedule. REFUSE! so i ended up not going to the play. which i really really wanted to. what the heck is her problem?? it's not like i did not help out when there is shortage of staff. i even did double shift several times just because my colleague took M.C. i could have said no. but i did not. cus she won't be able to find a staff to cover up in such short time.

i know i am getting emotional here. i couldn't help it. well, it's just a stupid birthday. i shouldn't make such a big fuss out of it. just another normal day to go by. i can do that. well at least i think i can.

lovely, lovely day~

woke up at 1pm today and it is still raining!! heart the weather totally! woke up smiling. something that i haven't been doing for ages! just loves it when it rains.

been really exhausted these few days. imagine this. was on afternoon duty one day. then the next day i was on double shift, and the following day, i was on morning duty. i didn't even have the time to rest. and thank god, today is my off day. and the weather was lovely. feels so good!!

went out with my friend to the supermarket to get some groceries while it was still raining. so what happened was that while we were looking for food (i was famished!), my friend accidentally stepped on my slippers and it snapped! damn.. oh well, lost my mood for food, we just went to the supermarket, got all the stuff we needed and left. my hand still hurts from all the heavy stuff that we bought. still can't believe how both of us managed to carry all of it. thank god there's taxi to take us home!

well, we ordered pizza for dinner!! yummmeeee!! ordered my all time favorite. the BBQ chicken supreme. the chicken is just soooooo tender. yum yum! plus the cheese and the juiciest pineapple pieces! don't remember when was the last time i had pizza. think i had it in m'sia with family. missing them AND the food terribly. ^^'

oh, the main part is the ordering part. so i called up pizza hut delivery, and was talking to this operator. she's really funny. can u imagine placing an order over the phone for 20 minutes???
she asked my number for 5 times! and my name for 3 times. i was being really patient with her though. she kept apologizing for havin me to wait for so long. and in the end she told me, "please bear with me mam, I'm new here." i was like, yeah, sure. no problem. just make sure you get the right order." i really want my BBQ chicken supreme pizza. i can be really stubborn sometimes. ^^'

so yeah, after the deliciously yummy pizza, i had a terrible craving for glutinous rice ball! and so i made them! Hershey-shaped tang yuan! that's another one of my all time favorite though.
wow, you can say that i ate a lot. but it only happens once in a while. usually i don't really eat that much in one day though. not that i don't want to. i just didn't get to eat due to my workin hours. oh well, in a nutshell, i had a great day today!! ^^

how's work nowadays? it's been goin really good for the past few days. i wake up everyday, telling myself that it is gonna be a good day today. everything will be fine. and so it did! i hope it lasts. please do. i'm prayin hard for peace at work everyday!! (usually people pray for world peace). ^^

oh yeah! i've just watched this movie called 'love actually'. yeah, i'm a little bit outdated. it's a 2003 movie. it's really really good. well, the tag line that got me all crazy over this movie was "love is all around" and it's all about love.. actually". lovely movie. made my heart all cozy and warmed up. it made me laugh, it made me smile, it made me cry and the coolest part is it really made me felt like there is love everywhere. the soundtrack was just lovely. and the most beautiful part of the movie is that it is filmed in a Christmas season where it gets all snowy, and where everyone gets together. i do not know about others, but i love this movie.

finally.. i'm tired of shopping.

went out early in the morning! first stop, lucky plaza. went there to get my sister's and my aunt's birthday present. Lola for my sis, and Delicious for my aunt!


then we head on to Central at Clark Quay. damn it is quiet. maybe cus it's still early.


see, can hardly see anyone at the MRT station except for the 2 person right at the end.


went with ping ping of course!

but don't know why, totally got no mood to shop today. maybe cus of the atmosphere. very little people around. or maybe cus i'm just really exhausted lately. did not buy any clothes today. suprisingly. =p

oh well, gotta get back to work tmrw. back to hell!!!!!!

definition of nurse???

life has never been the same ever since i have been registered with the Singapore Nursing Board. (wa.. macam sangat serious). but yea. not even happy about earning the current basic right now. every shift has been like hell! I've been walkin up and down non stop. and have not even been eating right lately. been skipping all my meals. not that i don't want to eat! i want to! but i just could not find the time to eat. work has been really busy.

just got scolded from ward sister today. it's just a small thing. why can't she just tell me properly? why must it be scolding? I'm already trying extremely hard not to do any mistakes! but I'm only human. nothing is perfect. that's what everyone says. but that theory does not apply to my ward sister. at all. she wants everything to be perfect. and when it doesn't, there goes your day. one scolding, and it ruins my whole day.

even get scolding for something that's not even my mistake! just because a student spoke to me in mandarin, i get scolding for not telling the student to speak in English. even said want to report me to Ms R.G. what the hell man?? I've got so much to do, so little time. life really sucks badly here.

Definition of 'nurse' according to Dictionary.com "A person trained to care for the sick or disabled, especially one educated in the scientific basis of human response to health problems and trained to assist a physician."

well, my version is: "a nurse is someone who gets scolded for something that is done wrong to the patient, a nurse is someone who some patient treats as a maid, a nurse is someone who gets yelling from a doctor when something is not right, a nurse is the first person anyone will get to find fault".

well, that's just my life currently. hope everything goes well in future. everything is just beginning right now. i can still go with the flow.

one word : 'hectic'.

supposed to be my day off yesterday. unfortunately, the ward sister called me back to work whilst i was happily shopping for my groceries early in the morning. don't know why, but when i woke up yesterday morning, i've got a strong feeling that this will happen. already had my whole day planned up ahead!

reluctantly, i went home and get ready for work. i prayed extremely hard that everything will go smoothly during my shift. well, my prayers was unheard.
first of all, my ward sister assigned me to be in charged of 8 patients. being in charge sucks. terribly. once i took over, everything happened at once. doctors came to do rounds, my patient had problem with the urinary tube(which caused him to have distended abdomen and it is not comfortable at all), then gotta assist a doctor to remove drains and staples, an ICU admission, gotta serve antibiotics and other medication, etc.. i mean one person can only do so much. right?

i hardly drink or ate anything! don't even have time for the toilet!!!!!!!! wanted to break down on the spot and scream my lungs out. i really hope that the time would just stop right there. man... it's really hectic. and the worst part is the report-writing. i did not have time to write or update any of the doctor's orders. i had to stay back and finish up all my stuff. i stayed back till 11.45pm. i had to make sure i've done everything. thank god there's still bus. reached home at 12ooam sharp. i'm exhausted. all drained out.

yea, i know i've got to be prepared for all this. who asked me to choose nursing right?
but i'm human too.

been so long!

geez. when was the last time I've blogged? so many things happened during these 2 months! first of all my comp crashed which is why i haven't been able to blog. so obviously it's fixed now! gotta bring it back to Msia to get it fixed. cus it's gonna cost me a bomb to fix it here in spore!



well i was glad to be able to go back to msia for Christmas! spent one week at home! at least i gotta meet up with my lovely cousies! and hang out with my sis! followed her to kl to collect all her clothes for her online boutique.



and once that short one week off finishes, I'm back to the dreadful lifestyle in spore! well i can say it's hectic though. so much to do, so little time.



so, i went to The Float at Marina Bay for the countdown event. well i had fun! went with Tiffie, Loi and girlfriend. it's beautiful. the city view is fantastic. it's kinda like the stadium-seats. so we sat kinda far up though. cus the seats below was packed with people. so it started off with someone performing. i forgot who. =p

it's actually really bored to be sitting up there man! there is a section where u can stand right in front of the stage. and i told Tiffie, "i have to get down there man". it's just so bored up there! so before Tiffie and i head down to the mosh pit, we went to grab some beers and headed back up to where we sat. then we made our way all the way down to the mosh pit after gulping down our beers cus Tiffie was starting to get sleepy after takin the beer.



we asked those crews over there about whether we can enter the mosh pit. and this guy said it's full and therefore we can't enter. I'm like wut the hell! i came all the way down here and u said it's full! i mean come'on! geez! we were about to give up when the host of the night announced that the mosh pit will still be able to fit in 20 more peeps! woohoo! excited, i made my way in!! and I'm finally standing right in front of the stage! and that means a lot more closer to the stars! ^^' had tons of fun cheering and dancing! but then i realized, everyone in the mosh pit has those glowing sticks in their hands except for Tiffie and i. we had to get one too! there's this young Malay couple but they've got 6 glow sticks in their hands! so i asked whether they can kinda give us two. and they did! weeee! then performance lasted till midnight where there's beautiful fireworks! and after the fireworks, we went for dancing at this incredibly huge dance floor just behind the stage. wooo! there, loads of fun! thank god i wore my extremely comfortable heels!



went clubbing on Saturday night. went with Aretha and Parveen. phew! great night too! ^^

started off with drinks. thought of loosen up a little. drank 2 glasses of vodka. no effect on me at all!! was expecting to feel all woozy though. geez. disappointed! then we head off for the dance floor. man, now that's where all those disgusting guys come in. oh well, guys are guys after all. just wanted to go there and hoped to dance off the stress at work! had loads of fun too! thanks Aretha for being able to hang out with us!! love ya girl! =p



now, gotta sign off though. enough of all those wonderful nights! gotta head back to work tmrw morning!